So, again, no pictures. I have a hard time reading LONG blogs... I like pictures, to I am sorry to those who are just like me.
If you have known me for a while, you'll know that I was always really thin my entire life. I had a high metabolism for some reason, but I was also crazy active in high school. I moved to Utah, and I remember as my body went from "teenage body" to "let's be an adult" body (spreading hips... I was amazed!). Again, I was still pretty active, but went up a size from that. Then, my gall bladder surgery. Even though I lost about 10-15 before the surgery- I gained that all back afterwards! And I feel that as soon as that was over, I got married and got pregnant. After Grant was born, I was excited to see the weight fall right off like it did on many s who have the same body type as me. That didn't happen. It was frustrating, but I was alright with it for a while. I knew that I wasn't working out the way I wanted to due to a fussy new born. Breastfeeding didn't happen either. THEN, we moved and lived in a place where I never wanted to cook... HELLO FAST FOOD! Holy cow- if you do not work out AND eat fast food... well... just don't!
So, now we're here in Bloomington. I have worked out/walked/done videos a lot, but still- I am not happy with where I am. I think I weight just under what I was when I was 9 months pregnant. Grrr. My husband is wonderful, of course, and always says I look good- but Christmas was really hard on me this year. I had a breakdown (so to speak). I couldn't fake my way into my jeans, my shirts all emphasized my stomach, and I felt plain ugly. I don't say this because I want all these comments about how I look really good. No- those actually bother me more, because I know what I look like. I have had a wake up call- I guess.
MY PLAN: I am eating breakfast now (even if it's just a bowl of cereal). I have a bowl of carrot sticks in the fridge along with a bowl of celery sticks that I can snack on during the day when I am bored or start feeling hungry. I am being really good about PORTION control. I made some chicken last night thinking Ben would be mad at the size of the chicken (half)... he then said, "I am full!" YEAH!!! It works! Also, I have a workout buddy! Hooray for Hilary! Even if it's not everyday, I know that I will get some work at about once or twice a week (as to opposed NONE). The mall in town has walking hours, so we are going to do that. I bought a balancing ball and I work with that sometimes, along with my 10 minute Pilates. I don't believe in DRASTICALLY changing your life. I think if I am balanced in the things I do- like work out MORE than the fast food I may eat (oh yeah, if we DO get fast food... it's a kids meal for me!), then 4 months should be a lot change coming my way. I can't wait for it to get nice out again, because I LOVE walking outside!! Grant loves it too. If Alison is reading this- let me apologize to you now- but my goal is to look better than you at your wedding!! hahaha
INVITATION: If you want to jump on board with me, I WOULD LOVE IT! However, you must weight at least 140 pounds to do so... that's my rule. haha Until I am below that weight, I don't want to hear it from you :) haha Let's keep up together!
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I would love to do weekly emails, telling each other how well we've done, or even how not so well we've done. We can make this a GIANT support group. Let's live our lives, but be a bit more healthy and conscience about what we do with our bodies (eating and working out). This is going to be hard. My middle name is NOT "DISCIPLINED." But I think we can all do it!
Now- get off the computer and walk around the block, make laps through your house, cut up some carrots and celery, DRINK PLENTY OF WATER (I also think I am going to flush anything I eat out with tons of water!! Used to work for me back in the day). Email me ideas, and I will do the same! Hope to hear from you all then!!