Sunday, July 22, 2012

Winding Down... or Getting Started?

This week has been pretty nuts! I haven't taken many pictures because, let's be honest, I've been a little busy. We've been traveling all over (without children). I flew to Chicago to see one of my friends from growing up get married. I was 35 weeks along during all of it and I left the kids with Ben. I was gone for 5 days, and it was so nice to be kids free. I missed them like crazy (funny how that works- they make us want to pull our hair out one day and we can't live with out them the next minute), but they didn't mind I was gone! I would try and talk to them on the phone or Skype with them- and they didn't want anything to do with me. Awesome. My brother happened to be visiting my parents at the same time and I am SURE we were just as annoying to my parents as we've been in the past.

I came home to a week of exams and final projects. After a crazy semester, I got everything done- and I did it with flying colors. My entire school career up until now has not been great. Going back to school scared me to death because I think I tend to not finish things. I feel like I've dropped classes when they seemed too hard and I've always had a hard time sticking it out. This time has been totally different. I want to do well! I want to learn! I especially want my husband to never have to second guess us moving to the middle of nowhere so his wife can finish up what she never did in the first place. That brings me to Ben...

Ben and I always say how perfect we are- for each other. I know I'm not perfect, and I am aware that he is not perfect either. But we are so incredibly perfect for each other. I love him so much! What spouse, in their right mind, would go and finish his masters degree and then head right back to where we said we'd never go again- (BYU-I) JUST so their wife could finish school!? Ben would. I may not be amazing at a lot of things when it comes to being a wife, and I think that a lot of people will feel that way. However, I married a man who is so incredibly supportive of the things that I need to do, want to do, and things that will make me happy. In case you missed it, I was in school, full time, all summer with two children and one on the way. The ONLY way that was possible was for Ben to be there and take care of the boys while I was in class. He is amazing, and I could blog about him all day- but I'll keep it short. I know I have about 3 semesters left, but I'm so deeply grateful for all he does for us. I know a lot of people question what we have decided to do (some vocal, some not so vocal), but this is the right choice for us. It's really hard, I'm not going to lie, but how can I not try my best with a husband like Ben!!!? ...

Back to school- this is my blog- so I can brag as much as I want! haha But I walked away from school this semester with my first 4.0 in my entire life. The funny thing is that now I'm off academic probation! Hooray!! hahaha

Ben took a quick trip down to Panaca, NV for a Mathews Family Reunion. I didn't go with him (tho I really wanted to) because I've started dilating and effacing. Probably not the best choice to head down to the desert and maybe go into labor. I had the kids by myself for a good 3 days... I've decided that when women are this far along in pregnancies... being a single mom is no bueno. I'm glad I kept somewhat of a record with Henry, because it seems like this pregnancy is following the end of his a little. Because of some crazy contractions this week, I went in to make sure everything was good (and see if I could go to NV- nope) and that's where I learned that I'm 2cm and 70% effaced (this was on Wednesday). But that doesn't mean much because I was at a 4 for 2 weeks with Henry and pretty much fully effaced until they broke my water for me (high blood pressure). So time will tell. I have an appointment this week and well see if I'm making any progress. I'm not ready for a third! I have so much to do- but I'm ready to meet this little girl or boy- and so are Grant and Henry. According to Grant, this baby will be coming out of my mouth... we'll go with that for now.

Ben has a BATTLE OF THE BANDS semi-finals in Provo this weekend (27th and maybe the 28th). PLEASE COME and support him. His band is so good... of course- he isn't ever in anything that isn't good! I would love to go with him, but time will tell. Who knows?! The problem with not going is that the boys will stay here with me and it's so freaking hot out, that it makes me miserable- to the point that I seriously start getting tears in my eyes for so many reasons (mostly how hot it gets) by the end of the day. I just don't like sending them outside because I have to go too, and then we don't have a nice cool house to come back inside to... so we stay indoors most days. If anyone wants to come up and be their nanny while I try and actually unpack my house before this baby comes... you're more than welcome to do so! haha

Alright- I'll end this word vomit session for now. We miss everyone and hope all are doing well!

-Rochelle and Co.


Anne said...

Good Luck with everything! I wish I could be there to help! I love you all!

Emily said...

Sad we missed you at the reunion, but I gotta agree with the Doc! You gotta keep that baby in there a little longer! Plus I think the last place I'd wanna have a baby would be Panaca. Hope that wasn't offensive to the Panaca-ites?!? Take care of yourself! Hope to see you soon!